Why do I doubt myself now?
Why am I terrified to go to the office tomorrow?
Why do I both yearn to be fired, and fear being unemployed?
Two days is a long time to think things over.
Would I go back and change my actions? No.
Do I regret anything? I regret the trouble I caused many people who don’t deserve it.
Am I afraid I will be made the scapegoat and nothing of substance will change? Yes.
My course is set, my path is hidden. History is repeating itself. I wonder if the outcome will be different this time? (Hindsight says I can only hope, as that one decision 11 years ago has made everythign I have today possible.)
My greatest fear is a reversal of my fortune.
Everything moves in cycles.