The interview this morning went well. OK, parts went well, parts went OK, and some parts were painful – typical, right? I interviewed with the whole team of people I’d be working with, then with the director for the group, then with another manager. The last two were the easy ones.

Much discomfort at the office afterwords, because I get the feeling I’m going to get an offer on this one. I need to sit down and explain things to J, I think, rather than just handing in my resignation. On the other hand, if I do that, will it impact my continued employment later if this one doesn’t pan out? I don’t know.

I do know that the job I just interviewed for will be challenging, stable, has great benefits (that don’t cause me to have to cut back on food consumption to pay for), and will pay me on time. On the other end, it’s in a real time medical environment. A bug could cause some one to die. Really. And I’d be on call day & night, in case that bug crops up.

But I’d be making more money, and could pay my bills on time….but (excepting the last 5 months) wZ has been the best situation I’ve had to date. Assuming J could match this offer, I’d stay.

Well assuming he could pay me on time – the ball-busters right now are the out-of-pocket expenses for Renee & the boys, and the fact that paychecks are now irregular (it’s like being constipated – you know it’s coming, but you don’t know when, and it’s really uncomfortable waiting). And I feel like the right thing to do is to tell him I’ve got to look, so that he isn’t caught with his pants down when I resign. OTOH, there’s a chance that if I tell him I’m looking to move on, he’ll accelerate that move – to the ESC and Unemployment. And that move is really bad for everyone involved – except him.

Moral dilemmas suck.

About Kevin Sonney

Kevin Sonney - who, contrary to popular opinion was NOT raised by wolves - grew up in central North Carolina. He fell into the technology field by accident in 1991, when he gave up the wild and crazy lifestyle of an on-air AM radio DJ to become a mundane technical support monkey. The technology industry has never really recovered from this. Kevin has worked for such names as IBM, Red Hat, webslingerZ, and Lulu Technologies (we won't mention the ones that didn't survive the experience). He currently works as a Linux Administrator for Apptio. In his spare time he rescues stray animals and plays video games with his two sons. His wife, we're sad to say, helps him get past the really hard bits. Kevin is still not very mundane, he just got better at hiding it.
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2 Responses to 699

  1. moonfl0wer says:

    moral dilemmas do suck. you gotta take care of you & yours, though…

    good luck with this new opportunity, and in making the decision. :)

  2. katzj says:

    My $0.02 for whatever it is (or isn’t) worth —

    Although telling your current boss that you’re looking around elsewhere may not have a direct impact, I would be willing to bet that it would at least unconsciously start playing a part if there have to be more job cuts in the future.

    My suggestion would be wait and see — if you get an offer and decide that you would be okay with taking it (even if you’d prefer to stay with wZ), that’s when you go and let your current boss know. You might get lucky and he might turn around and say he can match it and you can turn down the other offer or maybe he won’t but will be able to give some future guarantees. Or he could just turn around and say so long. And really, the same three options are generally there even if you tell him now — it’s just that if you get hit with the third option then, you have an escape route so to speak.

    And yeah, moral dilemmas suck. But it’s a survival of the fittest world out there — better than it was six months ago, but still pretty vicious.

    Then again, maybe I’m just a bitter, jaded, and callous person.

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