Made it through the memorial.Didn’t cry until i realized I’d never be the butt of one of his jokes again, that he’d never be nearby to make an off-color comment, that his general silliness was going to be gone. Forever, except in my memories.

he could be a jerk. but he was our jerk, and that’s what mattered, I guess.

Shit, I might cry again. This bites.

My father-in-law, who looks about twice his age right now, looked at me and said “don’t you go doing anything like that either!” to which I replied “Good gods, no. I promised, and anyway, Renee told me what she’d do to me if I did – something about raising from the dead and killing me all over again in slow painful ways.”

I dunno. The hardest part, aside from the constant ‘why” in the back of all our minds, is living – getting past it, making the most of it, and not forgetting the good parts. The bad parts don’t matter so much now, do they? But the good parts – things to save up and tell his children – to tell them who their daddy was – that’s important.

And now, to catch up on my mail after being offline for ~12 hours…

About Kevin Sonney

Kevin Sonney - who, contrary to popular opinion was NOT raised by wolves - grew up in central North Carolina. He fell into the technology field by accident in 1991, when he gave up the wild and crazy lifestyle of an on-air AM radio DJ to become a mundane technical support monkey. The technology industry has never really recovered from this. Kevin has worked for such names as IBM, Red Hat, webslingerZ, and Lulu Technologies (we won't mention the ones that didn't survive the experience). He currently works as a Linux Administrator for Apptio. In his spare time he rescues stray animals and plays video games with his two sons. His wife, we're sad to say, helps him get past the really hard bits. Kevin is still not very mundane, he just got better at hiding it.
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  1. jujubaba says:

    man, sorry to hear about your loss. let me know if there is anything that i can do for you.

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