My response to my cousin in MI

(footnotes [marked], and at the bottom)

>All present and accounted for on your end? I imagine this must be a
>real blow to Renee and Kevin.

The hardest part is knowing those stairs – knowing *THAT CORNER* – knowing you had clients on such and such floor…

…and knowing that it’s just gone. For y’all[1] it’s very sureal. For me…well, I try not to think about it too much. I was a New Yorker for 2 years. I’m fiercly proud of that. I may be a Southern Boy at heart, and in residence, but there’s a part of me that loves that city almost as much as I love my wife and child(ren).

And the friends I lost touch with, or had emails for and lost…I can literally put faces to places, and it just tears me up to not know, to have to wait for the lists that are coming, to find out – was Pat there? Trisha? Did Al have a contract down there? What about Derek and Corey and Danny and, and, and…[2]

…and that’s when you just shut down, and numbly try to get something, anything else done.

I’ve turned off the radio, and turned off the news for a while. And I think, and I know, and I see Today’s User Friendly ( and you fight the tears because they don’t help much, these tears of helplessness and a sorrow that goes beyond anything I have ever felt, and sometimes it gets the better of me, and I have to step away from it all for a while to be able to function again.

So I code and I hide in my office, and I hug Ray a lot, and I wait to hear. Because there’s not much else I can do. And I hope I never have to feel this way again.

[1] My family. I think and a few others know exactly where I’m at with this.
[2] the company and primary email address I had for a lot of thos people is just gone – no more DNS record, domain expired, the works. So I’m kinda shit out of luck in using the old email addresses…

About Kevin Sonney

Kevin Sonney - who, contrary to popular opinion was NOT raised by wolves - grew up in central North Carolina. He fell into the technology field by accident in 1991, when he gave up the wild and crazy lifestyle of an on-air AM radio DJ to become a mundane technical support monkey. The technology industry has never really recovered from this. Kevin has worked for such names as IBM, Red Hat, webslingerZ, and Lulu Technologies (we won't mention the ones that didn't survive the experience). He currently works as a Linux Administrator for Apptio. In his spare time he rescues stray animals and plays video games with his two sons. His wife, we're sad to say, helps him get past the really hard bits. Kevin is still not very mundane, he just got better at hiding it.
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